Well...we are officially overdue with baby Orchard! She was due to grace the world with her presence on Wednesday 9th November...but never came.
It is amazing what a rollercoaster of emotions pregnancy can take you on! Throughout the pregnancy, I have been really positive and taking everything in my stride. I didnt have morning sickness, and have been blessed with a fairly 'cruisy' pregnancy. I did manage to get Bells Palsy for a week, but thankfully that cleared up.
I would say im not an overly emotional person either - i dont cry at alot of things, in fact, my dad used to call me the 'Ice Queen' when i was younger! But lately, it has been hard to hold myself together.
Alot has been going through my mind as we await the arrival of our little girl...particularly about how my life is going to change. I know it is all for the good, and I am looking forward to this new chapter of being a mummy, but also, it has brought to light all the things that will change, and have changed. One being my body - it will likely never be the same as it was. This pregnancy has brought stretch marks and swollen skin...pimples and aching bones. I used to exude a confidence which has now been shot through! One thing i have to constantly keep reminding myself is, it is all for a beautiful reason...I am growing a little life inside - one that God so graciously blessed us with. My body will likely never be the same as it was when i first met my husband....but that is ok. I need to accept that and remember that beauty comes from within...man looks at the outward appearance, but God looks at the heart [1 Samuel 16:7].
I used to be a dancer...i loved to dance and express myself in that way. You can see a video of what i used to do here. I will likely never be a dancer again. Its time to let go of that dream and look forward to new dreams. I wonder what God will have instore for me instead...
I am excited about being a new mother, but also scared. I have no idea what it is going to be like, no idea if i will be good at it or if i will fail epicly! I dont know where to begin and i am even scared of holding her for the first time. But through all these fears, two things remain sure....
- I have a husband, who loves me and adores me, stretch marks and all....he is by my side physically, emotionally and spiritually and we are in this together...AND
- we have our almighty God, our saviour, our father. He is watching over us and guiding us day by day and he will make sure we cope just fine. He blessed us with this life and he will help us get through.
I dont know where we would be without this faith and relationship we have with Him...it would be an even tougher journey, i am sure.
Much love
