What is your purpose?

So many things in life are uncertain...do you know what your purpose is?

DD1, whilst getting ready for bed tonight said to me, out of nowhere: "why did God make me, mum?". It really threw me for a second! I mean, I know we are all put on this earth for a reason, and sometimes we never get to discover what that is for a long time (or at all!). But when she asked me, I was just blown away that a 3.5 year old could question her existence so soon!

The way I answered was a little shaky, but I said that I believed God made us all because he loves us, and he wants us to enjoy this beautiful world he has made. And he has given us gifts and talents to help others in this world find joy and inevitably, find Him and His peace.

She didn't query any more, but it got me thinking tonight. What on earth is my purpose? Hence, the name of my blog! I still DO NOT KNOW what my calling is!

I was never a real academic at school. I did well, mainly Bs and a few As and some Cs too. I loved English and Human Biology and did really well with languages (Indonesian and French) - although, I can't remember any of those languages now! 

My main passion was Calisthenics - I loved pouring my heart and soul into performing on stage. I had to work hard for it though. I always did well but never really excelled at that either (well, never reached my dreams of going to nationals - came very close though, aka missed out by one place!)

Then, after school I started studying Psychology, with a hope to move onto Occupational Therapy. But I only scraped through that first year and didn't really enjoy it. I took a break to travel with the family then ended up just in the workforce. I worked at a bakery, Kmart, a building company, then onto a law firm and worked my way up to a legal secretary position. I was a great worker, fast, a perfectionist. But I still had no idea what I wanted to do with my life!

I started studying a Bachelor of Early Childhood Education which I actually excelled at with high distinctions in all subjects. Then, I fell pregnant with DD1. I was in my second year and put it on hold. I never went back.

I then dabbled in making some headbands and accessories for girls whilst being a stay at home mum. I enjoyed doing it, but again, it wasn't for me. And now I've done my makeup course and am practicing makeup artistry but I still feel as though I'm made for something more.

I have absolutely no idea what my purpose or calling is. I've tried to find it, believe me I have. But sometimes I feel God is just looking at me, shaking his head and saying "oh, when will she just learn to pass the reigns over to me!?"

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

He knows. He knows!

One of these days I'll learn! See, this is why I love writing blogs, I'm learning more about myself the more I write! I'm practicing while I'm preaching, y'all!! 

So, what I'm saying is...it's ok to not have it altogether. It's ok to be in limbo. Limbo land is cool. You can try all sorts of fun things (just watch that budget though!). But in all seriousness, just keep being you. 

There is a plan and purpose for your life...it's already happening while you think your just trying to figure it out!!! Who knows what opportunity lies behind tomorrow's door! By simply living your life as you do/ in its simplicity, day in and out- you may be one step closer to unveiling your purpose!

So for now. I'll just stay right here, in this place called mum land, where I build Lego towers in the crazy countdown before bedtime, and let my kids practice doing makeup on me to pass slow moments in the day. I'll dance around the house to The Gigglemobile and Ill practice faith in knowing that by simply being myself and sharing my stories with others, it might be helping someone else achieve their purpose too.

Xxx